Call of Conformity

Wasting on the inside
The outside lies
Try to be more beautiful
In world's eyes
Conformity will take you
And wrap you in gold
With silvery fingers
You're jammed in the mold
The spirit is drowning
In gray moral seas
The structure collapsing
You're forced to your knees
"O come and bow!"
Beckons Idol of all
Bow to conformity
Join the Great Fall

Romans 12:2

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

Conviction is taking
You're letting Him in
Conformity breaking
And now you begin
"Transform me! Transform me!"
You seek holy face
O come and adorn me
With thy endless grace!
Mind's eyes are opened
Renewing light streams
In tears of repentance
Out heart's fruitful beams

the good work

It's when I try not to let myself know
It's when my left hand asks the right
and no reply,
That there is glory finding a new home
at the feet of an emerald rainbow throne.


Do the good work, not so it is of you, but so it is done.

Like the earth misses rain

A light gray blanket covers the sky
soft and fuzzy, but I give a sigh
Missing the sun like the earth misses rain
like the earth misses rain

A soft bewilderment covers my eyes
but I've let go the need to know why
Waiting for you like rain waits for clouds
like the rain waits for clouds

Many strange thoughtstrings crowding my mind
though I disbelieve, you still pass by
Watching you now like the clouds watch the sun
like the clouds watch the sun

Poems for One

Poems for One...it's how i'm feelin' Dec 2 2007 10:31 PM

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During periods of doubt, it is good to remember what the Lord has done
....
As I thought about the day
As I thought about the who
The who of who you are
My Lord that I’ve called friend
Since my hands were small as rose flowers
I thought about the days gone by
Those things already done
And I remembered a goodness
A glorious mercy
Reaching all throughout those days
Never quitting on a doubtful soul
Of mine
And always loving
...
I remember how I ask
And you give
How I pray
And you answer
How I doubt
And you don’t change
Ever-faithful Lord
I remember
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As I dance in support of the International Justice Mission, I cling to the hope that God is using me as a messenger to change the hearts of onlookers
....
Feel my face in sadness
The people watch
And I can take them to a pain
To the suffering orphan
To the dust of Russia
In my face
I urge them
Come
And see what hurts them now

Feel my arms reaching
Muscles constricted
I reveal to them the cry
The beaten hearts of daughters
The blood-quenched soil of Africa
With my arms
I urge them
Come
And see what hurts them now

Feel my feet in power
Crushing chains of oppression
I will show them hope
Though smeared into the earth
Though torn from all liberty
With my feet
I urge them
Come
And hope with them now
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It is easy to become prideful when you are on a stage with lights and audience. But to dance in humility is true worship
....
To dance
Is it for glory?
No
And then yes
For glory
Your’s alone
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When you look up to someone, it gets hard to let their thoughts about you not change you. I should not change, in heartsong, for anyone but my Lord
....
Why do I hang on every word he says?
its making me frustrated
I don't want to be so attached
to another's thoughts
of me
For then it's not about awesome them
or awesome You
but about what Who has to say about
me me me
I want to Not hear him
or to hear something different
I want to not care
yet love him caringly
I want to be unattached to his thoughts of me
yet deeply attached to his thoughts of You
I want to think about Your e-mails
Your replys
not his
He is lovely
He is Your's
I am lovely
I am Your's
But you Lord
are lovliest of all
And all universe is Your's
I want to dwell on You
and hang on every word You say.

All of You is More than Enough

You are more than enough Oct 21 2007 9:20 PM a battlecry.com post

sooo...the flesh part of me says "why type it out? no one is ever gonna read it."
I don't care. It's not about who reads it or what they think- do you know why, Satan? It's not about me. It's not about people thinking I am "so cool or so spiritual" because I've had such amazing revelations from God. It's about GOD and the revelations. Me? Who am I? I'm nothing. Nothing on my own. With God, I'm someone new...I'm To Live is Christ....and that, not any name, not Carleigh, is who I want to be.
Okay, so now for what God has been doing in my life. Well, I guess his theme to me these past few weeks has been this: that Christ, God, is more than enough for me. If all things were stripped from me and all taken away, would God still be enough? Is he really my all in all? He talked to me a few nights ago like he used to talk to me when I was younger. I just listened and he spoke and we had a best friend kind of conversation. Thanks, Pops. So awesome. It's been so overwhelming actually, in the most amazing way.
In the words of a song by Pocket Full of Rocks: "I'm finally losing me." I am, God. "For self I cannot live, life is less than worthless until my all I give." You've turned me around...I have truly been "transformed by the renewing of my mind." TRANSFORMED!! I'm new. I feel like I should have a new name because I'm so different than that old Carleigh girl. And SO much of it, all of it really, comes from my prayer closet. My daily devotions....my daily quiet time when it's just me and you for an hour. Where it's just your Word, just your voice, just your message, and it's all about you. I want my life to really be like a devotional time. That every breath, every word, every move, every thought is YOU. Because like you've shown me...what have I got to do with it anyway other than being that instrument that makes music unto the Lord? My purpose is to be a disciple and disciple others- after first following those first 2 greatest commandments: Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength and love your neighbor as yourself.
YOU God. Love YOU. Adore you and praise you and stalk you and be obsessed with you and Overall- be completely surrendered to you- living a CONSISTENT life of You...of loving you and thus follwoing you and all the amazing mircales that follow us once we "seek first the kingdom of God." all these things relaly will be added into us!! And God, these past two weeks are only the beginning!!!
okay- so if this is gonna be like my journal entry, so be it. Lord willing. no. okay, God. those will be me and you things.
well- i guess that's all God wants me to write for now. I want it- the passion and joy and fulfillment and hope and vision and freedom that comes with a life of Total Surrender and a life Completely about God and not an ounce about the me. No selfish-ambition...To Live is Christ...he'll take care of the me and all else there is to take care of.
SO GOOD! you are SO GOOD, Lord. Thanks for the awesome women's retreat and the IJM concert tonight and dance and youth group...even that short time. Thank you thank you thank you. I LOVE you, God....it's so crazy. You are awesome. More than anyone....more than anything.

God, you are more than enough. Amen

Looking and Living: Beyond the Earthsuit

From my battlecry blog: http://www.battlecry.com/battleplan.php?username=WolfGirl4God

Looking and Living: beyond the earthsuit

Have I changed the world? Have I made a difference? I really hope that in some way, despite my many flaws and shortcomings, God has used me to change the world- to impact another's life.
There was a lady at the grocery store today. I had to push my cart in front of her, and I said "sorry" for the inconvenience. Then someting ahpeened. The woman cared-she cared about me even more than I cared for myself in that moment. She said something like, "Oh it's okay. I'm absolutely fine, honey," in the sweetest, heartfelt voice. She wasn't saying it as an auto-response, she meant if genuinely, and specifically towards me. After she said that, I kept on pushing my little cart- but something wonderful came over me- a feeling that I wasn't invisible- a recognition of my own worth as a person, a self. It truly made my day right then and there.
Too many people these days walk around, live around even, like they only exist to themselves. Yes, we have our little auto-response "How are you? Good, thank you." and we try to push out a smile- but in truth, when does the heart really make its appearance in that greeting or smile? How often do the people of this world see eye to eye- being to being- spirit to spirit.
The world has become a world of appearances. So much of the world has forgotten the person inside the earthsuit. I have a picture of a tribal man handing over my bed that I cut out from national geographic.I love that picture- I believe I can see his spirit- he's not trying to conceal it, and he's actively searching the spirits of those he comes in contact with.
I believe that's how Jesus was- to the MAX. He viewed the spirit like no other. He saw and knew how frail and weak the flesh was- and he was able to impact the physcial body, with healings, because he knew the importance of the spiritman over the earthman. He saw eternity where others saw old age. He saw everlasting life where others saw a ead child. He made the blind to see, the lame to walk, and the dead to rise again because he rules in spirit, and in truth. The amazing thing is this- despite knowing the evils of the flesh and the sufferings that come with it- Christ became man, Jesus. Christ, spirit, took on flesh. Why? So he could have good looks or be the greatest warrior? No. He became man so he he could suffer and die as a sacrifice- his body was ripped and bruised, beaten and torn, when in fact it should have been our bodies- our sinful flesh bearing the due beating. But out of love- love- he bore our iniquities- and by his wounds we are healed.
Though his flesh was torn on that cross, Christ defeated the flesh in rising again! So we now can and should pick up our cross and follow his lead- no longer under the power of sin- a slave to the flesh. Instead, in Christ we are a new creation. Our spiritman is made to soar- to breathe the air of a bondservant of Christ, free from the shackles of a false world of flesh and evil desires. Satan works in the flesh, something worthless that rots away. God works in the spirit- continually building it and molding it as clay.
There is so much more too. Thank you God, for your wisdom. Help me to live in spirit and in truth.